The days are starting to blur together and there’s a lack of clarity that I don’t enjoy. This happens with other things for me as well and I have a sense of wanting the details, wanting to keep track along the way and have a real sense of clarity. So, that said I will hold the intention to create an email draft message with notes for each day. May not post each day and yet things will be clear and recorded.
Feasting wise, I did paint the other day with my sons who are also feasting with me. Kids do 4 minutes and my youngest decided he wanted to do 4 minutes for 4 days (haven’t been consecutive days). It’s helpful to have their company with it and has me watercolor painting more which is something I enjoy. I really love the fluidity of painting with water and color and seeing how things flow into each other and mix on the page. It’s usually an exploration of circles and color with a real sense of play and curiosity. Not trying to make a “picture” of anything. More about the process than the product.
I sat for at least 20 minutes each day when I was planning to have time for art and/or journal writing as well. Have sat for 40 minutes a couple of times since the start of the feast and enjoy the longer sits.
Wed evening – day four, I got to sit with my Diamond Approach small group (about 12 of us) and experience the sense of a larger field and others’ presence. I enjoy sitting in groups.
A lot has been moving in my experience feeling uncomfortable things not yet fully “digested, made conscious, integrated, healed (which ever word works for you)”. What I have noticed though is a shift in terms of having more capacity to be with things as they come up, see them clearer, feel the feelings and then create new strategies. Am attributing some of this growing capacity to having more regular practice time. Am interested to see how things continue through the 40 days of the feast. Will keep you posted.
-Ryl